Well, I had some photo's to load but the button is not there for me to do it. The Alpine girls are still visiting.
Anyway, I always try to keep this blog upbeat but life just won't cooperate. I have been employed by the same company since Sept 25, 1984, almost 30 years. I have excellent benefits while I am employed there but have none when I terminate or am terminated - no health insurance, no drug card. I would describe myself as an excellent employee as far as the quality of my work but I lack the social skills that would keep me from remaining on the "island." In other words, I'd be the first one voted off. Because I recognize who I am, I accept it as it is.
Now, after 30 years, they want to push me out. I really want to oblige the Director and Operations Manager, I have a little retirement money that I could cash in and hope for the best, but I'm on RX prescriptions and 56 years old. What am I going to do?
Unfortunately, Mike has never been the bread winner, I have. He's always worked but keeping the bills paid has always fallen on my shoulders. He inherited this beautiful land we live on and he's a wonderful caretaker to our animals, we're blessed and I'm not complaining.
On Thursday Jan 3, my boss/the Director was asking me about a one-day substance-abuse class that I arranged for and he signed off on but now because Operations Manager wanted to squash it, Director wanted to squash it, and I said, "I know the Operations Manager is gunning for me from a lot of different angles." And he said, "yeah, but besides that." I told him I had to leave and I'd be back Monday, the stress is overwhelming. He mumbled something about how he hadn't intended to upset me.
I and the Operations Manager report to the Director but the Operations Manager has started acting as my supervisor, and the Director is riding this whole wave. A few weeks ago on a Friday, the Operations Manager called me into his office, he was real mad, kept saying he was mad, but would never give any details, said I had been going behind his back, but I have no idea what he was talking about. Towards the end, I motioned for the Director to come in, he came in, and I left shortly after that. Later, I kept waiting for the Director to speak to me about it and he never did.
At the office, when the Operations Manager has an audience, he is very ugly towards me.
Let me add, I work in a service industry paid for by taxpayer dollars, this is not private but we work for the taxpayers.
Anyway, this is where I'm at. They're being obvious about getting me out, I MUST have some decent health insurance and I can't afford it on my own with no job. I'm quite depressed and I'm void of any self esteem. Where do I begin to get some help? I need somebody on my side to help guide me in the right direction.
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